DOODLE COMPOSITION- 2

I have been thinking this for some time. If any girl is in her twenty/ twenty-one (well I specified girls because hadn't lived a boy's life :) ) and if for some reason (whatever the foolish reason it might be) she is scared it's perfectly normal. Because in your twenties if you get a chance to experience the little storms these will made you forearmed about the upcoming big cyclones. To me, twenty is a  very significant & impactful age. 

Mathematically, I have successfully spent two decades. Two ten years. I tried to do the percentage calculations. There it was, I was afraid to choose an average age. 

All the biggest decisions are on the way. And you are tired. You could be exhausted, looking right at the screen, wasting time with a head full of screaming "What are you gonna do? What is going to happen now?" More importantly "what's next?" or you might be trying so hard with another "head full of uncertainty". 

And I did not learn how to make fun of uncertainty. Uncertainties are the worst. I am afraid of uncertainty especially the one that happens completely like expectation. I don't know what's making me write this big unnecessary essay at 3 in the morning. I can't even leave things to the hand of "ugh let's see what's gonna happen?" because I'm really aware of what happens when you do that. IT IS REALLY A VERY DIFFICULT TEST. I did not get the chance to prepared for. What if I screw up everything? Massive screw-up? Or What if I got lucky and have everything I wanted and then bam "life has its ups and downs". NO no too tough for me. In my life, I have planned a lot of things to work with but could not successfully pull off one single planning-based work. Sometimes I would rescue myself by saying I am not really "planning- do everything based on that- see what happens after that" girl. Some days I got a presentation slide showing up in my head one by one of the events that've been saved on the hard drive for a long time. Good for me, I am not really a keeper. I try to forget all the memories. The good ones and the bad ones. It helps a little. I am afraid of the average mediocre life and the opposite one too. 

Okay, I'll write another day about all the deepest imagination from the deepest of my head. I need to get some sleep now. *droooling*